两年后的我-2013

刚才看了一个朋友的blog,才想起自己以前也有一个blog. 当初写blog的原因是心理的压力无从释放，所以就想要在这里发泄一下。哎，我的人就是这样，无论小事大事，都爱发泄一顿。 两年了，自己有什么不同？怎么想了很久都想不到呢？ 坦白说，两年里，成长得不多，学到的也不多。但是，我学会了珍惜和一点点的体谅。 可能是一个人的时间太多了，会很习惯性地回想从前。回想起自己对事情，对身边的人的态度。 人，成长之后，生活圈子大了，但是知心朋友少了。能够和我到现在还能成为朋友的人，一定有不少过人之处了。。。因为自己是超级难相处的一个人。 那么好的一班人，我再不好好珍惜他们，我真是枉为人了。。。 家人，不用说了，如果不是他们，我早就不能活到现在了。 现在还是一天一天的在倒数回国的日子。我知道我应该要好好地享受在日本的日子，因为可能人生没有第二次。尝试过放开胸怀去感受，但是不能就是不能。我就是一个完完全全的群体动物，一个人是活不下去的。我喜欢分享，也喜欢被分享。我喜欢表达，也喜欢聆听。 我现在很爱我身边的每一个人，讨厌的人变少了。期待每一天都被爱包围的日子的来临。

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3 more months!After 3 months, i have to leave USM,i am graduate!The greatest is i don't need to meet the people who i do not like anymore!And i don't need to sit for any exam anymore!!Wow!But i feel sad at the same time too.I have to leave peggy, have to leave a phang, have to leave my lovely roomie...Last time,i always asked myself why i am so unlucky, can't meet any true friend in the University.But now,i feel so lucky that i can meet 2 good friends and such a good roomie in my final year. Before that, i had a 2nd interview at a company in ipoh. Suddenly i felt a bit sad,because if i work in ipoh, it will be so hard for me to meet them. Haiz,why i am like a kid thinking of those stupid things?CYA, study la,do homework la!

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Today i think i failed in the second interview with Murata. Three General Manager and 1 Personnel Manager,what a tough interview.After finishing the interview,i felt very upset.I had used about 8 hours to digest and analyse what i had gone through today.What mistake i had did and how to improve it future interview section.After that, i felt like all the upset emotion had been released. No matter how,i will not give up and be confident until the end!
What reason that make me become so strong?Simple reason,is BELIEVE!!!I am Naruto's and SHE's fan wut....

Have a nice day everyone!:)

很巧但其实是故意的遇见

今天遇见一位老朋友，但是我们都好像假装看不到对方。我好像扮不经意的进去那家电，而他更厉害，明明在当班，却可以整个身翻了过去，背对客人。哎，可能我的出现让他尴尬，不知所措，或他不想看到我吧。我只是觉得，我们都很不自然，是超不自然的！

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Now is my semester break but i do not have any holiday.JLPT and FYP have driven me to the busy life.FYP is still ok for me,but the JIPT make me so stressful,because it's an exam.I hate exam,i hate each time exam,i have to squeeze ton of things in the brain blindly.Just squeeze how much my brain can afford,what's the point? The point is i do not practice it everyday.Haiz, i like to do it everyday,but i really no time. It's true, not bull-shit.
I hate people who cannot read my body language. If i am busy doing something serious and the way i talk to you is just don't feel like wanna entertain you, please la! Leave me alone la! I do not have the responsibility to entertain you all the time.You are not my boss, not my mom, what for i want to entertain you?If i do not feel like want to talk, i just keep quiet and do my things,what's wrong with it?It's nothing wrong wut...If you are a child, then ok la, i will entertain you la,child is cute wut...But please, you are adult(although ur brain age is only a child), i really do not feel like wanna entertain you lo,because you are not cute at all lo.
JLPT is coming sooooon!!!!STUDY! OPPS!Is MEMORISE^^

突然的情绪

刚和Peggy小姐走了整天的Gurney,真的还蛮累的。在四肢都累坏的时候，我的脑袋还活跃的很，活跃的在想着很多东西。突然间emo了起来。我在想，用什么字眼来描述我现在的生活呢？想到我的生活，我的周遭，突然觉得很伤感。我知道自己已经很幸福，可是，总是觉得缺少了什么似的。有时候本来想要做一些事，但找不到人陪的时候，我就会觉得没有劲了。我有很多朋友，但是，很可惜，他们给我的时间真的很少。。。很少。。。我明白的，他们都有了另一半，不可能再有将多的时间陪我，所以，我从来都没有埋怨他们。我只是尽量的安慰自己，不要紧，你可以一个人的。但是，其实我根本不喜欢整天自己一个！！我真的很讨厌美琪！他每次都骗我！我很讨厌被骗！如果不想应酬我的话，你可以直接和我说，不用常给我空头承诺，我也是人，即使在你面前多乐观，多开心，我都会伤心的。还有，hc！特地sms来问我lunch跟谁吃，我回答跟A Phang吃，你就说你早就知道。我知道，我没有朋友，找来找去都那几个，那你也不必这样讲话！我真的很不开心，我很生气！我很想一个人去旅行，忘记说又不开心的事，因为我真的很不喜欢这里！我就说，难道女人就是没有友情，只有猜忌，只有爱情！
Hebe可能今年的圣诞节来Penang，本来想找hc或A Phang 陪，但都是自己一个去吧。我不想麻烦他。至于A Phang，我真的想他陪陪她男友，不想他整天找我吃饭，因为她男友真的对她很好。我真的很孤独，很孤独，才会一直想要跑回家。
我知道这一篇是最emo的一篇，但我真的很少有这个勇气写出来。我现在应该好好的整理情绪，再找个让我自己最舒服的解决方法。原来失去爱情的我，会有如此下场，其实我应该早就预料到。

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Actually i hope that can finish ZAT386(Semicond) by tonight.Yet,i am still stick in front of my lappie. Still got 3 more chapters,tomorrow gonna start doing the past year question. Hmm...wat a boring stuff.
Just now HC asked me :"Wanna go to Physics Night next Sem?" I haven't give her the firm answer.Should i go,because this is our final year.Whereas, my physics course mates are no any value in my heart.In fact, we do not have any bond with each other. I really don't care if have to leave them soon.Except those who are close to me la,Allove and HC la.
If there is a Japanese Night,i sure will attend.Because compare to Physics course mate,i am definitely more prefer Japanese class's course mate.They are very funny, not 'kia su', natural, kind.
So...what's the conclusion?Should i attend the Physics Night?Hmm...let me think about it first,because now,i don't really feel like wanna go.It's torturing me if want me to face them for whole night,especially those bitch and suck guys.
Ps:bitch and suck guys not including jay lin, pei fei, ze hao.