刚和Peggy小姐走了整天的Gurney,真的还蛮累的。在四肢都累坏的时候，我的脑袋还活跃的很，活跃的在想着很多东西。突然间emo了起来。我在想，用什么字眼来描述我现在的生活呢？想到我的生活，我的周遭，突然觉得很伤感。我知道自己已经很幸福，可是，总是觉得缺少了什么似的。有时候本来想要做一些事，但找不到人陪的时候，我就会觉得没有劲了。我有很多朋友，但是，很可惜，他们给我的时间真的很少。。。很少。。。我明白的，他们都有了另一半，不可能再有将多的时间陪我，所以，我从来都没有埋怨他们。我只是尽量的安慰自己，不要紧，你可以一个人的。但是，其实我根本不喜欢整天自己一个！！我真的很讨厌美琪！他每次都骗我！我很讨厌被骗！如果不想应酬我的话，你可以直接和我说，不用常给我空头承诺，我也是人，即使在你面前多乐观，多开心，我都会伤心的。还有，hc！特地sms来问我lunch跟谁吃，我回答跟A Phang吃，你就说你早就知道。我知道，我没有朋友，找来找去都那几个，那你也不必这样讲话！我真的很不开心，我很生气！我很想一个人去旅行，忘记说又不开心的事，因为我真的很不喜欢这里！我就说，难道女人就是没有友情，只有猜忌，只有爱情！
Hebe可能今年的圣诞节来Penang，本来想找hc或A Phang 陪，但都是自己一个去吧。我不想麻烦他。至于A Phang，我真的想他陪陪她男友，不想他整天找我吃饭，因为她男友真的对她很好。我真的很孤独，很孤独，才会一直想要跑回家。
我知道这一篇是最emo的一篇，但我真的很少有这个勇气写出来。我现在应该好好的整理情绪，再找个让我自己最舒服的解决方法。原来失去爱情的我，会有如此下场，其实我应该早就预料到。
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Random update
Actually i hope that can finish ZAT386(Semicond) by tonight.Yet,i am still stick in front of my lappie. Still got 3 more chapters,tomorrow gonna start doing the past year question. Hmm...wat a boring stuff.
Just now HC asked me :"Wanna go to Physics Night next Sem?" I haven't give her the firm answer.Should i go,because this is our final year.Whereas, my physics course mates are no any value in my heart.In fact, we do not have any bond with each other. I really don't care if have to leave them soon.Except those who are close to me la,Allove and HC la.
If there is a Japanese Night,i sure will attend.Because compare to Physics course mate,i am definitely more prefer Japanese class's course mate.They are very funny, not 'kia su', natural, kind.
So...what's the conclusion?Should i attend the Physics Night?Hmm...let me think about it first,because now,i don't really feel like wanna go.It's torturing me if want me to face them for whole night,especially those bitch and suck guys.
Ps:bitch and suck guys not including jay lin, pei fei, ze hao.
Just now HC asked me :"Wanna go to Physics Night next Sem?" I haven't give her the firm answer.Should i go,because this is our final year.Whereas, my physics course mates are no any value in my heart.In fact, we do not have any bond with each other. I really don't care if have to leave them soon.Except those who are close to me la,Allove and HC la.
If there is a Japanese Night,i sure will attend.Because compare to Physics course mate,i am definitely more prefer Japanese class's course mate.They are very funny, not 'kia su', natural, kind.
So...what's the conclusion?Should i attend the Physics Night?Hmm...let me think about it first,because now,i don't really feel like wanna go.It's torturing me if want me to face them for whole night,especially those bitch and suck guys.
Ps:bitch and suck guys not including jay lin, pei fei, ze hao.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Exam mode
Tomorrow is my first paper,Japanese.After a week is Solid State and Semiconductor .Am i feeling panic ?Scare?Hmm... really not sure that what's my feeling now.I hate that i become lost. Yet, i always feeling lost, because many things are uncontrollable and not in my plan. How do i get use to it? It's any method to cure those hard feeling?For those genius physicist, could you please invent some formula to solve those problems rather than those quantum mechanic, wave mechanism, Shrcoodinger equation and so on to torture me?
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